Friday, September 23, 2011

Who Am I?

I have been having a really hard time lately deciding what major to declare now that I am in college. I have SO many interests I feel like I cant just choose one. Here are my options:

1. Aerospace Engineer
2. Sociologist/Social Worker
3. Medical Researcher (Cancer)
4. Forensic Anthropologist
5. Lawyer

There are so many other things that interest me but I can't think of them right now... I just want someone to come and say 'Hey Taylor! __________ is what you are supposed to do for the rest of your life!' ... Why can't that happen? Now, I know what my mom would tell me to do and I know what my step-dad would tell me to do but... Will I be happy doing those things?  I honestly don't know. I also feel myself being pulled in a completely opposite direction...music. I know that I am not the best at the cello or at piano... or even at singing. But, I do love it (most of the time). I have always wanted to own a concert hall/theater where prestigious players and orchestras can come and perform and I can just watch and listen. That's what I love most of all...listening and writing music. Once again, I am not the best composer but I LOVE it! The times when I am sad or stuck I always revert to my piano or cello to get it out of me. I feel stuck musically all the time and wish I knew the proper way of getting in on paper. If I would just take a music class I could figure all of these things out... Along with loving music I equally love the theater and being on stage. I love the stage more than just about anything. I love the thrill of performing and how you get to be someone completely new for the time being. My senior year of high school I attached myself to the theater in so many different ways I grew to love it. With both of these paths though, there is no money in the business... It makes me so sad to think that I might not ever get on stage again or perform again...

Me and my cello.


Cast of Stage Door

Me standing in the Julliard courtyard